crying heart...

Right at this time i still cant sleep..really feel like crying. Why everyone seems like avoiding me when i need someone to talk or chat to? When im ok, everyone will appear and chat wit me..what is actually going on??? I really feel tat the world is treating me unfairly. When saw tat person in pasar malam just now, i really feel like slapping myself and wake myself up..i have tried to forget everything and just wan to have a new life. I dun wan to recall back the black memory. Wat i can do tat time was just to cry deep in my heart. Tat time nobody knows wat my feeling was although i still showed out my smile and laughter.