JuSt anOthEr dAY....

Just come back from school this moment...sigh..this week is the study week. Early in the morning I went to school. Wei Ting, my coursemate, came to my house to bring me to school. She accompanied me for the whole day coz she went to school to study too. For the whole day, I keep practising my math. So happy today coz i finally have the confidence back in doing Math1. Today, me and Wei Ting went for lunch at PizzaHut in Section 14, PJ. Lol..while we were studying half way, we suddenly thought of eating pizza...Haha..we tried the 4 topping pizza. See the pic there..tat's my personal pan pizza that i ordered too..chicken supreme...Although it's ordinary, i like it the most. It was raining for the whole afternoon..felt that the sky is crying for me and trying to comfort me...tat's why i feel pampered when it rains. After our lunch, we went back to school and studied in the library...tat time i was extremely full...haha. While continue doing my math, my mind kept thinking about the exam. Haiz...i kept thinking about the negative side. Then i tried to comfort myself by saying..."I love u, math...". Lol..am i crazy tat time?? I know the only thing tat i can do is to study hard and pray to God. Thank to Wei Ting too..she also guided me a lot when i had a lot of doubts. Around 5.20pm, then we went home. On the way to send me home, we went to eat cendol in Section 17, near the roadside. I like the cendol there...damn nice..Hmm..today seems a nice day for me but yet my mind still have a lot of doubts. Sigh...i'm sure beyond my life, there will be a happiness waiting for me somewhere...what i need to do is just to be tough to face all the obstacles and find it out myself..ya..i know i can do it..cheerz..= ="

Running nose...

Just wake up at this moment..last night slept quite early coz too tired liao. When i wake up this morning, feel very blur de..and also a bit dizzy. Haiz..also out of medicine and that's why my flu hasn't recovered yet. I hate flu!! Yesterday after class, I went to wangsa maju with my coursemates to look for house. Damn..tat time my running nose really made me feel like very dull. Looked around for about half day then we managed to look for one at Section 2. It's a flat..seems not bad and the environment is very quiet...but honestly..hehe..i dun really like it. Seemed spooky..Lol..wat can do..i plan to find slowly till i find a house or room that im really satisfy with. Dun wan to be so rush...then after tat, my friend dropped us at KL Sentral and from there, i took lrt home. Quite tired though..somemore, when i went into the lrt, like "sardine"..haiz...different kinds of smell coming out from everyone. After reached home and took bath..i felt a bit dizzy..maybe due to the flu. Haiz..forgot to buy medicine that time. Then i just online for a while and after tat went to take a nap a while. From 7pm slept till 11.30pm. Waked up a while to switch off the pc and room light, then continued sleep. Hehe...Thanks for "u" coz kept messaging and calling me. I know u care me..and i really appreciate tat..haha. Wat am i going to do today>>>Lol..maybe just stay at home and study gua..Haha..ok la..i gotta go now..bye...

Days in memory....

Me and Rachel
See this pic....Lol..do we look like couple? Haha..many ppl always mistaken and thought tat we are couple..hehe..but i never blame them coz wherever i go, sure Rachel will beside me de. So good to have this friend coz she always accompany me and talk to me in school. Can say that she is the one who knows a lot about me. We do always share a lot of problems together and sometimes talk craps too. I know her since we are in Semester 1. Haha..tat time she seemed so blur all the time and always got bluff by other ppl. Then we start to talk to each other in class and from there, we get to know each other more. Lol..she was the one who broke the most test tubes in the lab.."our record holder"...hehe. Sometimes she always ask me funny and shocking questions, but it was nice coz we get to share a lot of things. I think if I never know her in school, sure i will get bored all the days in school. She is kinda my "cheering up" friend. The funniest part is that although we are so closed, we do quarrel sometimes..i mean quarrel just for fun lo..oh ya...do u guys think her face look like "ang gu kuih" or "balloon"? Hehe..dun angry o Rachel..i'm sure u dun mind de la coz u get used to it dy..I like to call her "balloon face" or "dumpling" coz she does look like both of them. Very happy to know her la coz she always smile all the time de. Sigh..time really passed so fast..now we are in the final of Semester 3 dy..wa..dun really feel tat it has almost one year dy...Anyway..Rachel,gambate ok!! God is always there for us when we need Him..He will always show us the right way out and i'm sure that He loves us. Only He knows when we are sad or worried about something...cheers.....

WitHoUt lOvE, wHaT Is LiFe aBouT?

Do u ever thought of what is life about when there is no love? Try to think it personally..this question always pop out from my mind and i will always wonder about it myself..For me, without love = loneliness. I'm sure everyone will feel lonely when they are alone and need a companion. Ya..i knw family is always our closest one in our life but sometimes i just need to search for someone who can share their true feeling and happiness with me..Lol..I also wish to share the sadness and happiness with someone. Recently, I always feel that love is avoiding me. Why the world is treating me unfairly? Hmm..i believe the time hasn't come though. Sometimes i get to emotional and frustrated..maybe due to my coming final exam..i really really hope that love is not fading away from me..I guess that everything should be going step by step..However, i will always be myself..that's Jerome..hehe...and Jerome will always keep his heart strong to cross the big ocean.....

crying heart...

Right at this time i still cant sleep..really feel like crying. Why everyone seems like avoiding me when i need someone to talk or chat to? When im ok, everyone will appear and chat wit me..what is actually going on??? I really feel tat the world is treating me unfairly. When saw tat person in pasar malam just now, i really feel like slapping myself and wake myself up..i have tried to forget everything and just wan to have a new life. I dun wan to recall back the black memory. Wat i can do tat time was just to cry deep in my heart. Tat time nobody knows wat my feeling was although i still showed out my smile and laughter.

ss2 pasar malam....

This week is the final week already before the study week..haiz..means that final exam is coming. The war is about to begin again..i knw tat this semester i must work very very hard. Everybody is giving me support..so touched when they keep giving me support. Hehe..today's class a bit more relaxing..i guess it's because we have finished our syllabus. Lol..many ppl didnt concentrate in the class today especially during the Web Page Design practical class..so funny when saw everyone chatting in msn and some browse the net..lol..me also did that..haha. After the class today, me and my friends went to ss2 pasar malam. Everyone was so hungry and can't wait to buy foods there. Hm..it was fun when we went to pasar malam together. Can talk a lot of things and even make fun of our friends. We then sat down and had our dinner together. While having dinner, suddenly i saw something tat really made me thought about the past again. Haiz..why i saw tat "person" again at the same spot. Luckily tat "person" didnt saw me. I also dun wish tat "person" to see me. Haiz..maybe God wanna wake me up and let me see the truth i guess. I admit tat i got a bit sad when saw tat "person" wit "its" partner. Although sad, my friends laughter cheered me up again. I told myself not to think about it anymore. It's useless to think about it. Im sure i will find my own happiness one day..I really felt very happy today although i was a bit tired coz walked around the pasar malam..hehe..thanks guys for the laughter tat u brought to my life.. :)

Rain..rain..

Just come back from school..feel tired though...after taking bath makes me feel wanna take a nap. Keep falling asleep today during classes. I wonder why everytime when i am sad, it will suddenly rain. Tat's why i really like it when it rains. Feel that it understand my feeling and trying to comfort me. I will feel really nice when it rains. I ever realised that most of the sad things happened last time during the raining moment. Today in school, i felt a bit moody. Dunno why...i feel like taking a nap now..dun wan think too much at this moment...

Hide and seek?? Lol...

Few days didnt write my blog dy...too busy with all the assignments and presentations. Haiz..i admit tat it was a tiring week. Yesterday was having my web page design presentation. Lol..after the presentation, me and my friends planned to go "pasar malam" in ss2 but then we had to wait coz it was raining heavily. While waiting, we suddenly came out with the idea to play hide and seek since most of the students had gone back and there are many lecture and tutorial rooms there. We were stucked in tat block coz we cant go out since out there was raining heavily. Lol..there were around 8 of us. We played hide and seek like a little kids..haha..well, i so long didnt play tat since i was in primary school..hehe.It was fun..really. The most funny part was tat we all hide inside the male toilets together wit the girls. Lol..sot liao us..then Evelyn who was the seeker couldn't find us for about 20 minutes..haha. Me and Ray hide in one toilet, Kenny, Shu Woan and Chia Wuen hide in the another toilet while Chun Wah hide behind the door of the toilet. haha...it was like so crazy of us..play hide and seek when wearing our formal attire after presentation??? seem weird huh...haha. Lol..it was really fun after the tiring day..we played till around 7.30pm something and yet the rain had not stopped. Damn it...then the guard asked us to go out since they wan to lock the hall dy. wat can do..we went out to wait lo. Then we went to KFC to have our dinner...although very tired tat day, it seemed we still having fun and had forgotten our stress. Really wanna thank Ray and Kenny coz they really helped us a lot in designing the web page for our presentation in the group. They had done their best and i really appreciate tat..hehe..thank u to u guys..I knw final exam is coming soon..haiz..seem tat i must start my job dy..i must study hard again since i got to re-sit my maths. Hope tat God will bless me all along the way...

..::WhAt iS liFe aBouT?

Right now, i'm thinking about happiness. Where's the happiness that i had last time? Why happiness can't stay long by my side? I know true happiness is hard to find...i always make myself to think tat the right time just hasn't come yet..It makes my life to keep falling without someone to hold, guide and lighten the way for me. I knw the relationship didnt last longer becoz of my fault...i nvr learn to appreciate it well..i knw i have been greedy all the time. After all on wat had happened, i promised to myself tat i will appreciate every single things tat are on my side now. I will always wait slowly for it to come...but who knw how suffer i am when i really need help from someone. Nobody is beside me when i really need the help and a companion right beside me when i wan to express my feeling. Sigh...i knw the closest will be always my family. It's not easy sometimes to just share our heart feeling with someone..coz i just wanna share it wit someone who i've been waiting for. I knw the "person" tat i've been waiting for hasn't appeared yet but i promised i will wait for it slowly. I dun wan to be greedy anymore like last time. I just hope "u" can open up my rusted heart and change my thinking...i will keep waiting for tat moment to come...i promise...

Speaking my mind = ="

Just finished some parts of my assignment at this moment. Hmm...listening to the song "Guilty" by Blue. I like this song since i was in form 4...I like the content of this song..Hehe..i'm sure everyone will feel guilty when they realised that they did something wrong. Just wanna share my thought with u guys. For me, i always feel like my life is actually like crossing the big ocean alone. Since i first came to kl last year, life is always being hard. Well, when we get far apart from our family, it's like de lar. Tat moment was my first time living outside far away from family. Starting from tat time, i learned how to become independent and adapt to the environment here. I admit tat sometimes i did cry to myself. Well, i still remember when my first time studying in Shah Alam last time. Tat was the hardest time for me..My daily life there was just walked to school everyday and sometimes just rest at home when there was no class. Walking to the uni from my apartment took about 10 minutes. Lol..tat time i really look like a nerd. I still remembered tat time i had always been the "competitor" for the malays there. Tat was becoz i was the only the chinese in the whole course. Haha..the malays always treat me as their competitor in academic. Well, i dun really bother on tat thing and i still try to make friend with them. Slowly and slowly, they become more friendly to me and from there, i started to learn to mix around. BAck to tat time was in the period between jun-dec 2005. I most scared when my housemates all went back to their hometown during weekend coz i will be the only one left at home. I admit i do cried sometimes when i was staying there..well, kinda embarrassing when i admitted tat i cried. I knw man shouldn't cry but tat moment was a really hard days for me. Maybe it's my first time experiencing such situation. Lol..tat's why i learned many things from the past. The saddest moment was during my birthday in tat year. I still remembered tat day was my final exam in tat uni. It was the last subject in the exam..after the exam, i went back home directly coz it was raining heavily..and as i reached home, i noticed tat all my housemates had gone back to their hometown. As usual, i just cooked a simple dinner for myself and watched tv. Haha.. a bad birthday..from there, i get used to all kind of this situation...celebrate or not it's a normal thing for me. See...i always think about the past although i told myself not to. Haha..well well...this is wat i call "life"...sigh...there's still a long way to go though...hm..gtg dy..wanna sleep dy coz tomorrow 8.30am class...haiz..ta ta....

Through the days....

Sometimes i keep thinking why in this life we like to make our life so complicated...for me, the more we think about a problem, the more complicated it gets. HAih...i really really hate people who are arrogant and always like to take other people for granted..this are the attitude in a person that i hate most. Why they wan to be like tat? i just dun get it. Maybe it's their natural attitude i think. They always do something purposely to annoy a person and think as if their action is always the right...this person attitude is more "smelly" than a rubbish...Anyway, it's always a people natural attitude and they are really selfish and always think that they themselves are the "king". Haiz..dun talk about this thing liao la...waste my time only...hmm...today was a bit moody at school but yet i still try to smile among the others. After the class this afternoon, i went to meet my friend at Midvalley and we went for a movie. I'm the one who asked my friend to go out with me coz i just felt to release my sadness and tension. I realised tat i more like to hang out with friends out there becoz they are more socializable and nicer to talk with. I always like to talk about life issues with them and sometimes we shared each other problems. I think this problem sharing is good coz at least we get to express our own problem and things tat always irritate our mind. I reached Midvalley around 5.20pm and went to watch the movie "Frostbite" which started at 5.30pm...the movie was quite scary and thrilling but yet the ending of the story is not like wat i expected..well...i dun really care about such thing..as long as i can watch the movie tat i wan to watch. Haha...after movie, me and my friend went for dinner at Nando...and we talked a lot there. We talked about our own life and the past memories. I felt comfortable and really enjoyed the dinner. Previous experiences and memories really taught me a lot of things..although most of it was sad..well...i believe tat there will be always a miracle when we never expect it. I knw sometimes our life is a bit complicated and hard to be explained but we just need to keep our heart to be strong and dun fall easily. Just remember our own "root". For me, maybe my right time hasn't come yet...sigh...i will just wait slowly though...All the past really have influenced a lot in my life although that sweet and sad memories are still fresh in my mind. Well..i will keep myself happy and smile always to go through the days....

Life continues...

My mind a bit blur now..maybe it's becoz i just wake up. LAter have class at 1pm. Lol..last nite was really funny 4 me. While online half way, i was so tired coz keep sitting in front of the pc..so i went to the bed and planned to just lie down. Tat time was around 10pm..Well..after lie down on the bed, i just sms my friend and then without notice, i have closed my eyes and slept. When i opened my eyes and see my phone, it has already 7.35am..wow..as i wake up, i realised my room light and pc were still on. Haha..so i quickly switch off the light and i saw some messages in msn..it was from dexter and isaac who are my friends. HAha...im sure they were curious why i didnt reply their messages. Well..that time they have offline so i didnt reply them. HAha..isaac..im sure u knw why i didnt reply ur message last nite ho..sorry ya. Dexter?? He's a TAR college student and lives at wangsa maju. WHy he online tat time?? I thought he was sick and yet he still went out to online and played games wit friends at cyber cafe?...haizz. As i wake up this morning, feel like my head being thrown with a big rock. Thought tat i have headache but i guess it's not..maybe i sleep too long dy since last nite..haha. Last nite, my sis called me up to talk to me..she shared quite many things wit me..i really love my sis coz she always pampered me and give me support whenever i feel down. Lol..she is pretty as well..make me feel proud to have this sis..hehe. Ya..she asked to study hard so tat i can pass my math..whenever she call me and i listen to her voice, i will think back about my family..so miss them...especially my dad who had passed away when i was in Form 4...my mom also very care me de..hehe..everytime when i go back Kuching, she will cook my favourite dishes..feel so "xin fu" become the youngest one in my family. My bro?? Hehe..he also quite care for me sometimes also..sometimes when he call me up, he sure will ask.."anybody bully u there?" or "do u have enough money for expenses?"...haha..and i will only answer him.."No la..." and "i still have enough money la"...Different story when my mom call me..i very scared of her actually coz she is very "lo so"..sometimes will nag at me as well..Hehe..i knw she "lo so" coz she worried about me..sometimes when im really busy and yet she call me up and nag nag nag...i will scold her de..very bad ho..haha..well..i dun mean it de. Hope God will forgive me o...hehe..Oh..later have to get ready for my class dy...hm..this is how my life keep going on everyday...now i realised tat i love to blog coz i can express whatever i wan to share or say from my heart. Well..life still have to be continued everyday...dun worry..i will keep my heart strong to "cross the ocean"...haha...bye...

Think too much...

Haha...today i was so rushed to school coz i thought i'll be late. The class supposed to start at 12pm but i reached school around 12.10pm..fuh...luckily still ok 4 me. When i entered the class, everyone was busy discussing about their new house in wangsa maju where they are going to move in end of this year. Ya..i ever thought of why Utar is so troublesome to have separate campus in sg. long, pj and wangsa maju..really cause a lot of troubles..haih..after finish the foundation this year, we will enter into the degree course in Utar, Faculty of Engineering and Science. I really hope can enter my degree as soon as possible but well..there are still many things i have to face. I wondered why i was so energetic during the Management lecture class today. Dun feel sleepy at all. Lol..maybe becoz i got too rush and all my tenses have been released out..hehe. After finish the class at 2pm, i walked out from the lecture hall while waiting 4 the next class at 3pm. Haih...again i saw all my friends were talking happily about moving to wangsa maju. They all have planned to stay together under one roof. For me, i dun have the mood to find any room yet. I never plan to stay together wit them. Maybe from my previous experience, i get scared to live together wit friends. Well, it's not easy to live together though. We have to tolerate a lot of things. I prefer to stay alone with other students who i dun really knw well. For me, im sure in the future, they will have a controversy. So i just wan to avoid that situation. Why life is getting boring and boring...i really wish i can share my feeling wit someone i care and love each time i'm sad or feeling down. Lol..not to forget i also wish to share my happiness wit that person too. Well..right now, the "right person" hasn't appeared yet. Everytime i see my friends talking happily about something, i'll turn speechless as if i dun knw how to mix wit them. dun know why is it so...sometimes i think their thinking are still immature and not match wit wat exactly im thinking about. HAha...lol..just blame myself coz always think too much...

Memories....

Today whole day at home really made me think a lot. I guess sometimes i like to be alone so that i can think a lot of things about the past. Just as usual i waked up early in the morning and did my laundry. Then turned on my pc and checked my mail. Honestly, i really scared of loneliness and that's why i prefer to make myself busy by doing something. I realised when i don't go out, i will just get trap inside this room. My companion is the wall...this room really gives me a comfortable feeling. Hm..suddenly thought about the days when i was in Shah Alam last time. My previous university was in Shah Alam called KUTPM and was taking diploma in medical laboratory techonology. I chose to quit to study in tat uni coz it really sucks. Haih..i still remember when i first entered the uni, it gave me the horrible feeling. The management there was really suck. First day schooling there cause me a lot of headache. Just like going to "pasar malam" tat time searching for the classroom and the lecturers. Oh gosh..even the lecturers also dun knw their schedule. I really got angry tat time..After one week had passed, i slowly adapted to the uni environment..believe it or not...i was the only chinese in the class for that intake...90% was malays...gosh...but wat can do..just study there lor. I used to stay in Perdana Apartment. Everyday i walked from my place to the uni..tat time i told myself tat gaining a knowledge was not easy. My housemates were all chinese. Haha..so funny when think back of the life there last time. Experiencing all the sweet and bad memories there really taught me to become more mature. End of the year 2005, i quit studying in tat uni coz i really cant stand on it anymore coz i realised i dun really learn much thing there. Not worth it to study there. Well, at least it had become a lesson for me. Entering Utar really gives me a lot of happiness and appreciation. After entering Utar only i can feel the real uni life..haha. I guess there's nothing special on what i did today as i just get to stay at home and rest....

Such a boring day...

I still remember i waked up at 8.30am yesterday. I was rushing to school as i have promised my friends to meet at school at 9am to do our assignment. Die...i thought i will be late so i quickly rushed to the bathroom and then changed my clothes..haiz...actually felt like continue my sleep but what can do. While waiting for bus, i was wondering about my math. Haih..wat am i going to do as i failed my math1 and math 2. So sad..actually even sad when see all my friends have planned everything to move to wangsa maju end of this year while i am still floating on the air wondering what should i do. It's not that i don't plan to move but really no mood for all that. I planned to pass my math exam first only i try to find a room there. Right now, i really feel that my life is just like crossing the ocean alone. Well, i guess i have to work harder. Sometimes i keep thinking why am i so stupid in math. When i was in secondary school, i still can cope with my math. Hm..may be i seldom practise my math i guess. The math result really turned me down. Now i just work harder on it and hope i can pass my math. When reached school, i then just did my assignment in the computer lab with some of my group members. Although my mind is still blur on what i was doing, i just don't care and continue with my typing. That whole day was nice coz nobody sms me...haha...and yet i still waiting desperately for someone to sms me and chat with me. After finish my part of the assignment at around 3pm, i then went to online. Hm..sadly, nobody online and tat made me feel even more bored. Then i just read some funny email sent by my friends. Life is really dull...Seeing that it was going to rain, then i just quickly walked home as that time had no bus dy. How good if that time there was someone who can accompany me to walk home and can at least talk to me. On the way, it started to rain so i made a faster move. That day was really a tiring day for me as whole day was just doing assignment in school. When reached home, i just went to take a bath and then online....seemed there was no one to chat with, i went to sleep coz too tired. Slept at 6pm and waked up at 8.30pm. Such a nice sleep for me..haiz..really bored tat day coz nothing special which i can do like going out with friends. Haih...my saturday had gone just like tat...